Roaming

I felt resentment towards one of my children today.

What I had wanted to do was sit in an audience of parents gathered to listen to 2,3 and 4 year olds sing a variety of winter holiday songs.

I did not want to stand at the back watching my own two year old intermittently sulk and crawl around the gymnasium. Yet, there I was standing, having to monitor one unruly child who had decided to show his anti-social toddler side to the world while my middle child belted out Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer and some song about a dreidel.

Normally, singing performances of young children cause me to cringe. Most kids yell out the words with little attention to how the notes should sound. This particular show interested me because I wanted to view for myself how Larien would do after only being exposed to these songs for 8 days before the show. From what I heard and saw, she did well. The one exception being the hand movements.

I hated that I felt resentful. I hope that Inwe and Larien don't feel the same way towards their siblings. But, of course, I'm kidding myself. They do at times wish that the others weren't in existence.